jeffree star.

"DEAR GOD,

Sometimes I stab my legs full of holes and wonder why I still can't feel anything.

Somtimes I look in the mirror and wonder why[why]why?

Sometimes I pretend I'm Barbie.

Sometimes I can see my veins before the blood comes pouring out.

Sometimes everything doesn't get put back together perfectly.

Sometimes I like it like that.

Sometimes when the bruises heal and the lipstick has worn off, I lay in bed holding a butcher knife instead of someone's hand.

Sometimes [onlysometimesbecausethere'sneveralways] I carefully pick myself apart until there's only marytr scars and doll parts left.

Sometimes I wonder why you want me [deadanddrowned] so badly.

Sometimes [butnotneveragain] I let you see reality for what it is.

Sometimes I put razorblades in my mouth and pray someone will kiss me.

Sometimes the cigarette burns on my skin look like diamonds.

Sometimes my heart stops beatings and I have to put on more mascara.

Always [neversometimesbecausethetruthhurts] & and then?Always and forever didnt mean much.

But it meant something when you saw past the cosmetics and the cold hard plastic.

It means some[thing]time you'd think about me when the sky was perfect gun metal gray and you felt like dying.

I want my face to be what you see when you're paralyzed with fear and the ceiling comes crashing down.

Sometimes I pretend I'm a mannequin in Nordstorms and don't move for hours.

Sometimes the Band-Aid's come unglued and no one comes near me.

Sometimes I wrap my hands around my own neck and wonder why I can't strangle myself.

Sometimes I rip out my hair and break my fake nails to see what it feels like.

Sometimes I put on my tiara's and pretend everyone's watching.

Sometimes I write "jeffree star" on bathroom mirrors and smash tthem with a hammer.

Sometimes my skin isn't perfect.Sometimes nothing[everythings]perfect but I cant remember when." -jeffree star